http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/ Love Dating Relationships Friendship in Washington Oregon Idaho en Sun, 05 Feb 2012 18:53:48 GMT vBulletin 60 http://pnwlove.com/images/love/misc/rss.jpg http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/ http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/19-what-my-home-meant-me.html Sat, 12 Dec 2009 08:36:48 GMT I think when we go through divorce, we all want to make sure we're successful and prove that we can move forward. For me, it was showing I could still maintain my business, own beautiful things, laugh with the most friends, and finally, reside in a loving home. I found my "home" 2 years after my divorce. Before that, I had lived in a 800sq ft apt (after living in 2500sf home with "him".)
It was out in the country- 5 acres of peace and quiet, and oh yeah, big and beautiful. For the last 2 years, I've finally been home. I know my family love my home (I mean, they have been here for a holiday or two). Friends enjoy it- the party's, the hot tubs and misc social gatherings. And even if 300 days of the year its just me and a dog, its been our "home".
Today I decided to leave my home. It was time. Opportunity knocked (well, kinda more like baseball bat to the temple)...and in a matter of 24hours, I'd written my plan to vacate notice. Who ever thought that would end up being the hardest email ever? Wow, talk about one of the saddest moves ever. But Iknow it will be positive, and already I'm excited for great new things to come...In my new home. ]]> Rockerchic http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/19-what-my-home-meant-me.html http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/10-time-change.html Tue, 10 Mar 2009 22:16:41 GMT I have a habit of getting stuck...
Change? I hate it. Especially if I'm running in that zone we call comfort. If something is working, even just remotely, why change it? So without this "change", i tend to get bored. But I choose not to change anything- instead i decide on "disrupting" this so called path I'm on. Ruffle the feathers, stir the pot, rock the boat- these are all terms that can describe me...and that doesnt make em good.
Well its been mentioned here and there that I've gotten some tough love from a few good friends to say the lease. Two really bad cliches that apply to me: 1. You fail to plan, you plan to fail. 2. Definition of insanity-do same and expect different results. SHIT! you mean I need to change???? And whats interesting come to think of it...pretty sure i was hit with idea sometime around new years. It was going to be my new motto. Of course I was gonna start easy. I'll change my haircolor, and the style...okay this is good, its workin for me- people are liking it. Who am I hanging out with? ohhhh yup, better change that too. I want to be around positive people, less drama- healthy folks that enjoy the same pleasures as me- NO WAIT! NO I DONT! I want them to indroduce me to NEW things! yup! Cuz i'm changing. :) So what else- hmm, i douched the salon. BE GONE! How can I change anything in the shop when everyday i come in to the same negative, crappy thankless crew? I cant. Be gone! So i let everyone go. No i don't want anyone new just yet. I'm still getting rid of that damn icky juju. Wow! and I feel FUCKING GREAT! The phone is ringing off the hook, my door is revolving with new and old clients- new people are calling about potential work, new sales peeps are knocking. I've been offered not one, BUT TWO seperate color educator opportunities (you mean YOU like me and my work?? and I get to decide if I wanna work for YOU??) whoooo hooo. Man, this change feels so good, i think I'm gonna just keep rolling with it! Ive picked out a new product line, I've rearrange the salon, i'm changing my color line...OH MY THIS IS SO FREAKIN SCARY- BUT HELL I'M EXCITED! Bring on the change!!!:mfclap: I'm changing how I view life, who I allow to lean on me- are you leaning or sucking?? I've changed in the sense that the word NO is a little easier to say now. I have set boundries, and will be sticking with them. If this forward, positive roll of change keeps going this well- my oh my. I AM soooo happy someone told me about "change". ]]> Rockerchic http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/10-time-change.html http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/6-yes-i-like-blog.html Sun, 09 Nov 2008 20:51:17 GMT what makes a day feel good or bad? Was it how you slept or didn't sleep thru the night. Is it that ur hair and/clothes don't look "just right"? Did someone say or do something to affect your mood? It seems at some point one or all of these things can make or break your day. Very rarely do I wake up and just decide to have a shitty day. I never wake up and hit the snooze over and over again cuz I dread what the day may bring. I feel quite fortunate knowing that even if my day starts out rocky, theres going to be some client or friend that will do or say something that turns me around. So a big thank you to those of you who make my day! And for those of you who feel like shittin on my parade, take ur poop elsewhere...:thefinger: ]]> Rockerchic http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/6-yes-i-like-blog.html http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/5-happy-halloweenie.html Sat, 01 Nov 2008 01:49:47 GMT Well its my last night to drink. Tomorrow I'm eliminating alcohol 'cept for some holiday cheers here and there.

I'm gonna stay put at home and see if I get any trick or treaters. I think I'm too far off the beatin path to get any. But going out in costume tonight just doesnt sound fun. Maybe I am getting old and boring.

Tomorrow is golf. woot woot! I havent done enough of it this year. Funny how the things that you enjoy and make u smile are usually the first to go when you get a busy schedule. Ever notice too that when u start dating, u kinda loose part of yourself? I don't think its conforming or sacrificing yourself, but more like the trade off at the time seems rewarding enough. Then, when part of the equation is removed, your like wrf? And u realize all this shit you shouldve been doing for you is still waiting there to be done?

I guess that's where I'm at. Time to find a balance between maintaining my sense of "self" but still be able to share part of that "self" with someone in a healthy manner. (that's provided there IS someone)

anyway just my thought of the day, since it seems to be what i struggle with the most ]]> Rockerchic http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/5-happy-halloweenie.html http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/3-emotional.html Fri, 24 Oct 2008 06:45:01 GMT grrr. I am tonight. I just wanna cry- okay, so I am. I do not understand how something so simple as showing someone how easy it is to LIVE a happy... grrr. I am tonight. I just wanna cry- okay, so I am. I do not understand how something so simple as showing someone how easy it is to LIVE a happy stress free relationship can turn into a tipped over bucket of sheeeeeeeeeeeeot. I'm pissed, frusterated, sad in a kick em in the fuckin head kinda way. i'M having a serious visit about "life" and the fucker just starts snoring....for realz?

Of course there's a bigger picture, but somehow that seems to sum it up for me for now.:banghead: ]]> Rockerchic http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/3-emotional.html http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/2-ex.html Wed, 22 Oct 2008 03:33:18 GMT is a member, therefor my thoughts and comments that I feel like postin, I cant. It sux. Not sure what to do about it..... is a member, therefor my thoughts and comments that I feel like postin, I cant. It sux. Not sure what to do about it..... ]]> Rockerchic http://pnwlove.com/blogs/rockerchic/2-ex.html