what makes a day feel good or bad? Was it how you slept or didn't sleep thru the night. Is it that ur hair and/clothes don't look "just right"? Did someone say or do something to affect your mood? It seems at some point one or all of these things can make or break your day. Very rarely do I wake up and just decide to have a shitty day. I never wake up and hit the snooze over and over again cuz I dread what the day may bring. I feel quite fortunate knowing that even if my day starts out...

Well its my last night to drink. Tomorrow I'm eliminating alcohol 'cept for some holiday cheers here and there.

I'm gonna stay put at home and see if I get any trick or treaters. I think I'm too far off the beatin path to get any. But going out in costume tonight just doesnt sound fun. Maybe I am getting old and boring.

Tomorrow is golf. woot woot! I havent done enough of it this year. Funny how the things that you enjoy and make u smile are usually the first to go...

Love and Happiness. We all want it. We all search for it. Do we really understand these feeling? I thought I understood these feelings. I was wrong. I didn't know what true love was or what it felt to really be happy. For 32 years of my life I was searching in vain for something I didn't understand.

I was incredibly selfish in my search for happiness. I was so caught up in my search for something I didn't yet understand that I destroyed many relationships. I was incorrectly searching...

grrr. I am tonight. I just wanna cry- okay, so I am. I do not understand how something so simple as showing someone how easy it is to LIVE a happy stress free relationship can turn into a tipped over bucket of sheeeeeeeeeeeeot. I'm pissed, frusterated, sad in a kick em in the fuckin head kinda way. i'M having a serious visit about "life" and the fucker just starts snoring....for realz?

Of course there's a bigger picture, but somehow that seems to sum it up for me for now....

is a member, therefor my thoughts and comments that I feel like postin, I cant. It sux. Not sure what to do about it.....